I haven't written in a while as it was easier to just post on Instagram. I am okay, but hitting an energy low. I could lie in bed all day and be quite content.
I am regretting all of the things I didn't do this summer, but happy I have this part-time job to pad my savings. I know my second job is wearing on my boyfriend and that makes me sad as he is my main support. I am trying to figure out a win-win solution.
I like the job. I don't love it, but it is what it is. I get to leave it at the door when I get home.
I am grateful for the reason to get up and get clean. Flashbacks to this winter when I wouldn't get clean all day.
What's next for me is trying to stay in the moment and savor as many good moments as I can.
I have no big picture plan. I really just need to get to the end of today and wake up again tomorrow. One of the "good moments" for me right now are the tiny clementines and grapes are at their peak of yumminess!
I also picked up a Big Gulp of Mountain Dew yesterday. I don't do that often, but it made me feel about 19 years old. I was flooded with memories of carefree evenings and little responsibilities. I opened the windows to the car, hair flying around me and drove up the mountain to get my daughter while sipping my sugary treat.
I am also eating hummus and pita chips for breakfast. It sits so nicely on my finicky belly.
Each of those treats is a bit of joy to my day. Not part of a plan of action, but simple moments for me to find a bit of happiness. I hope you are filling your days with happy moments.