Tired

"You often feel tired, not because you've done too much, but because you've done too little of what sparks a light in you."  Author Unkown

This is how I feel. Not depressed, but bored. This boredome can lead to depression like symptoms. I feel under stimulated. No hobbies. Few conversations. Nothing new being introduced into my brain.

The job at the grocerie store gives me some stimulation, but it is all surface level and the same conversations are repeated all day. Just like the food coming down the conveyer, so do the tired old same questions. Plastic or Paper? Ha ha, you forgot your bags in the car. Yep you are not alone in that. Did you find everything okay? Is this the end of your day? 

My favorite and only question that leads to interesting answers is "so what are you making with all of these items?"  You ask this when it is not obvious at all what they are going to do with olives, three cartons of ice cream, an eggplant, two stalks of celery, three Red Bulls, some mozzerella cheese sticks and an avacado. Sometimes they look at you like none-ya-business and other times they describe a recipe they found and once they explain the recipe it all makes sense.  Other times, like described above they aren't making shit. Just eating random items. 

When a buggy topped full of food hits the conveyor I try to guess what the dollar amount comes to.  $341.57? $453. 28? $280.86?  I love this game.  Then I ask if this is enough food for two weeks or a month?  See I am connecting with the customers!  My last game to keep myself for becomming bored at work is to mentally guess how many of any one items would fit into a buggy based on what is the predominant item in their cart. How many packets of Ramen will fit into a buggy?  My guess is 600!  How many little lunchables?  About the same as the Ramen.  How many bags of grapes, without squishing them? My guess is 250.  

If you have made it this far into this post, CONGRATULATIONS!  I am bored. I am trying to find ways to keep myself from surcombing to Situational Depression. And fuck me if Seasonal Depression isn't knocking on our doorsteps. As soon as the days get shorter and darker I can feel the need to curl up and sleep take over. 

I am going to get off my ass this week and go down to the local bead shop to find out what classes they offer and what they cost. I have a ton of images in my head of earrings and necklaces I want to make.  I also bought two stamps to start making some art.  I would like to have enough to start a little online store. Who has experience with online stores?  I am not sure what are the most cost effective ways to sell online. Anyway, if you have thoughts on that, let me know.  My email is mentalmelissa@yahoo.com

Thank you for sticking around to the end of this rant.  I feel less bored already. Hope this need to spend and start projects isn't a hint of hypomania to come.  Bear with me while I ride this roller coaster.
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Mental Melissa