The Plan

My daughter got the job. I am both excited for her and angry that it had to happen now. She is trying to work up the nerve to tell me they are going to want her to start immediately and that she cannot go on vacation with me. I had looked forward to this for months and in one swoop it is all being taken away. That is the truth of how it feels. I am feeling selfish. This isn't fair. It is not okay. I am not there yet. Being okay with this will take time and it looks like I will have plenty of time to myself to process how quickly her teenage wants trump my mom wants. I only have two more years until she is gone, like her brother, out being an adult. Just fucking sucks.