Life Changes

If your life continues on the path you are on, what will it be like in five years?

Honestly, it would be very boring and painful to watch unfold. I don't feel very exciting now. To go meet new people would be unbearable. I wouldn't have a great deal to speak about. I would feel very jealous of the people who were glittery and witty and who were living a life of experiences.  I would feel jealous in general. 

If my life stayed the same, I would still be overweight and not look like I remember myself looking a mere 5 years ago. 

I would still be broke and living paycheck to paycheck. Which wouldn't be awful except I wouldn't be broke and happy, creating and being of service. I would just be broke and bored. 

If my life stayed the same, would be so bored I would fall into a long, dreadful depression. 

If my life stayed the same, would be lonely. I worry sometimes I might die of loneliness. 

What do I need to change to stop this terrible future from happening?

 I need to  find my creativity again and start making something, anything. I need to read more and see more movies to fill my mind with interesting concepts and ideas. I need to go out with my girlfriends to stay in touch with my feminine side. I need to go out on more adventures and people watch with my boyfriend. I need to taste so many different things to fill my soul.  I need to keep up my workouts and know that each day, each rep is leading me to a stronger body. I need to find a new job to humor my need for people interaction every day and to earn more money. 

It is so easy to isolate yourself when you are feeling depressed. I need conversation and connection or I have little reason to get out of bed, regardless of the consequences. 

It is so easy to get buried by the weight of this question. Daily, I wonder if anything I am doing matters, really matters. 

I love the question of do I want to take the small changes that keeps me from reliving this year, over and over again. Until my next depression cycle, I am choosing to take the baby steps towards change. How about you? What do you need to do to alter your current path?