Parenting is really, unbelievably hard.
Parenting with mental illness makes it so much harder to be a good parent. I am grateful my illness has not been hospital worthy so far. I am grateful that my meds for the most part, for now keep my illness at bay.
Trying to process mental illness feels very selfish when you are a parent. Having any illness as a parent makes you feel like a failure to taking time away from your family to work on making yourself better.
Do your children know you have mental illness? How much have you told them?
My children know I have bipolar, but I don't think either of them really understand what it means and how it applies to them and they are both in their late teens. They are wrapped up in discovering themselves and "they are nothing like me!"
I don't want to mention that they could inherit this from me. I will just let that be for now. It isn't a given and odds are they could go throughout life never having an episode. I am sure they will have questions for me later down the road as they try to understand the nuances of their childhood.