Trying. Trying. Trying.
I am really having a hard time letting things play out. I want control. I want to know what to do to get the best outcome.
Actually, I need to figure out what the best outcome will be.
I hate waiting and I hate not knowing.
If I quit the grocery store, I can keep my 50/50 with my daughter. I really need the money though. If I don't quit I won't see her often. If I do quit, I still won't see her often as she has a part time job too. I can't see an outcome that makes me feel happy. This is causing so much anxiety and stress to my days.
Having said all of that, I can't make anything happen any faster than it is going to naturally play out. So now I sit in that uncomfortable space, waiting and watching for clues.